Hi.
I’m not active anywhere right now. Am I waiting for the ‘heyday’? Maybe. I think I just had more time and life was more settled in the previous times. Also, as I get older the less I want to deal with drama. It’s human nature to be out there and to exist, but the less I want to be part of it. Sadly, I still want to hear about it though. It’s probably my toxic trait. I want the tea spilled, but I don’t want to be part of the brewing or cleaning up process.
I also don’t like when my character is too tied up in what they can and cannot do. It kills my creativity. I like to play silly things from time to time to break my super serious moments. I like the whole gambit of genres of RP out there and I want to be able to find fellow writers to be like 'yes and…" with me. I start to be less inclined if I feel like my RP is being overly monitored. I’m not doing anything wrong, it’s just that ‘trying to catch you’ feeling.
I was on a previous game that’s practically dead if not dead, so no I won’t name and shame. However, the staff there would hold RP lectures on what my char should do. They didn’t hurt anyone. The people involved were having a good time. Every decision I made felt like if it didn’t benefit the person in charge or completely follow their vision, I got IC lectures. It’s not fun. Or I’d be told OOC how I wasn’t great. Also not fun. I happen to think I’m amazing and awesome and all those things (cough cough). Sometimes the world and the game created gets so consumed on the main trunk of the story, they don’t allow branches to form. That’s some of the best RP.
Also, let’s admit it. I’m tired now. There is a lot going on in politics that effect me, there is a lot of fear around the world and with people that I love, I work long hours, I decided to go back for my degree (why was that again), and I have a household to maintain and I’m now in that place in my job where I am responsible for people not just the time I’m supposed to be there which also adds a level to it. So when I come to a game, I can come up with the ideas. I will even do the background stuff for it, but when it comes to running and doing rolls and such… my brain decides this is where the off switch should go.
I’d love a partner to run things with. We can brain storm it and go, but they can like the ‘roll-playing’ that I don’t like. I just like the creation of chaos (toxic trait as well).
I appreciate everyone out there running stuff and interacting on a daily basis though.
